Mark today as the first day in years that I take these pills. These awful pills. Serve as my reminder, be my preventer. Jot it down, on this day 200 years from now. To save myself, I swallow suppression. I lie and inhibit, to rise. To rise like the phoenix you made me to be. To crash and burn down 1000 more times. I got the message, but you didn't. On me like a pusher, don’t think I don’t remember. One pill makes you larger, one pill makes you small. The ones that father gave me, don’t do anything at all. We see change; change is good; burn in hell.